I found myself drawn to the entries in the last month of her life. I won’t, can’t share what I wrote, other than the entries were full of confusion, pleading, and trust. It is that last word, trust, I wish to explore.
Late last year I wrote on a Biblical view of suffering. It starts with this post. Scanning through the entries from August – November of 2017, it was clear that the Lord was dealing with my heart in trusting Him. Trusting Him in the process of helplessly watching my son walk through the excruciating pain of losing his wife amid the joy of beginning life with his new daughter.
Psalm 9:10 (here @ Bible Gateway) was one of the passages the Lord was using to shore us up during that time. If we know Him, we will put our trust in Him. It is not in doctors. It is not in our ability to pray the right way for the right things. It is not about anything we can do in the midst of a helpless situation. It is to trust in Him.
Hebrews 11:6 (here @ Bible Gateway) reinforces this. We believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him. There are times when it seems like His definition of reward is vastly different from ours. We still trust.
There are two other passages, well there are more actually, but these may help here, Deuteronomy 4:29 (here @ Bible Gateway) and Matthew 5:6 (here @ Bible Gateway).
The point here is that like we covered in the previous posts on suffering, the way to navigate suffering in a way that honors Him is to trust. We trust Him and seek Him continually. I would suggest that one needs to have a life that includes that discipline prior to entering into a season of challenge.