Then, as He is wont to do, He quietly directed me to Ephesians 4:32. I hate it when He does that. It is pretty clear. It is not dependent on someone who has wronged me acknowledging the wrong. Doesn't seem to matter if they have changed or stopped being a self absorbed jerk. What matters is that Christ forgave me. My responsibility is to imitate the Savior and forgive. When you strip all of the Sunday school answers away the reality is I do not want to. Doesn’t matter. That is the assignment.
So the bottom line for me is that has to be a work of Christ’s grace in my life. I am incapable of doing that on my own. To suggest otherwise is simply dishonest. So the starting place for me is to acknowledge that inadequacy to my Lord and ask Him to help me in my unbelief. Because the reality is if I am unwilling to do what He has told me to do I do not believe Him. That is where Hebrews 11:6 comes into full force in my life.
I do not want to live there.