So one element of my struggle today was working through, praying through, trusting God rather than trying to fix the problems. As a type A, with a bias for action, to stop and ask, consider if my plans are really what God wants me to do is not my default position.
So today was a day of reflection and reading a book that my wife showed me a few months ago. I scanned it this morning and read it this afternoon. I would highly recommend it. It is Mark Batterson’s, The Circle Maker. When I woke up the book was on my mind with the four issues. After I wrote for a while in my journal, I started scanning the book. This was one of those times when the Lord directed me to fellowship with a brother through a book that codified and helped me get a partial handle on what I needed to be doing.
I have not got this Christian life thing completely figured out yet. In fact I am finding daily areas in which I am woefully inadequate. Mark’s book helped pull some scripture together for me. Had a good time with him this afternoon in the Word and in prayer through the book.