In the past when I missed, I felt some sense of loss. I have been released from that. I will still write everyday but it is no longer a task, it is more of a sense of worship – no that is not right, it is more of an offering…
The passage that comes to mind is Romans 12:1 – 2. This is a living sacrifice with the purpose of being conformed to Him. I think it is a reminder to me of what He is doing in my life each day. The illness forced me to cancel two online studies with men who are in other countries halfway around the world, as well as the studies I have locally. Those are the things that He has given me that have in the past seemed to give me value, significance, if you will.
The reality is – and I have written about this lately – He is enough. What He does in my life daily is enough. He is, or should be, the focus and all that I need.
It is a shame, I think, that it took putting me on my back for four days to remind me.