Astonished

In Acts 13:22 Luke tells us that David was a man after God’s own heart.  Luke is combining thoughts from 1 Samuel 13:14 and Psalm 89:20.  That notion has always been bewildering to me.  An adulterous murderer is the man after God’s own heart.  Then I hit a passage like 2 Samuel 7:18 and it becomes clearer.

David’s reaction to being king is just about 180 degrees out of phase with mine.  Instead of David’s reaction mine is more like, “Look who I am, why have you not brought me far?”  Instead of being overwhelmed by God’s grace toward me I tend to act like an out of control toddler screaming, “give me more!”  My self-serving, demanding heart is astonishing.